Restart

I apologise to my loyal readership of two google bots for my long absence. It has almost been an entire year since I last wrote in this blog and to be honest, I cannot justify for whatever reason why it has taken so long for me to restart this passion of mine. There have been so many attempts in the past - handwritten works, rambles on my phone, and ideas that felt so powerful but now have rotted away in time, no longer maintained by my short attention spain. After all this, I have finally realised it is time to stop worrying about editing, and forcing myself to write a specific topic or issue that I am passionate about. Or even worrying about being interesting (not saying I was ever anyway), but that this blog should really just be about writing whatever I want as it comes up. Why draft away then forget to edit it later? - the words lose their soul and meaning as time goes on. And so, henceforth posts will be as they are - rough drafts of rants and rambling thoughts of a person who loves to express the symbolisms of life that aren't even there.


So what has happened over the past few months? A lot of self-reflection and discovery typical of an adolescent university student. I have caught the travelling bug and just like that famous quote in Hangover, "what happens in Vagas, stays in Vagas except Herpes, that shit'll come back with you" - the travel bug is very much like Herpes. Every place that you go in the world seemingly adds to the problem of wanting to go even more places. I used to think of myself as a person who loves safety and security - a person who loves being home and never going anywhere new. Now I feel truly like my favourite animal - like a hawk who wishes to fly above the curse of being a ground-dwelling species, into the skies above and into places incomprehensible distances away. To truly explore not only a foreign place but immerse within its culture, history, food and rich essence of what it means to be human in this small jigsaw piece in the chaotic puzzle of mankind so far away from my piece in the puzzle. Now I am a person who fits in whatever travel they can into their busy schedule of university, work and pre-existing leisure and unfortunately most of the time, it is a poor fit.

Alas, I will leave you with just a brief blog post simply because it highlights the most important lesson I have learnt since my last post, that in order for something to happen, you simply just have to do it. We can talk and think about our choices, discuss them with friends, and postulate outcomes but at the end of the day, life is most unpredictable just like the universe itself with its forever increasing entropy. It is us who then interpret the world in our own ways as order - we make actions that create our own form of order. So I could think and talk about how I was going to eventually write again in my blog but it is the action of actually typing these very words out that created some form of order in my life. Practice makes perfect and in my absence, my written language has no doubt diminished in quality and so rather than cause even greater pain to my readership and to myself, I shall simply do as mentioned earlier - write whatever I want as it comes up, and I shall leave this at that.

Trying to restart my blog as well as my life so bye.