exams can suck some

Well clearly i haven't exactly been bothered to write in my blog in, well ages. This could be attributed to the two maths examinations which i focused on by sacrificing my love of writing or it could just be because i haven't been bothered and my time has been taken up by study among other things including the American football match soon. Anyway i figured i might as well commence writing again since i'm either bored or feel inspired to write. And clearly i'm not following the same structure i had that is, the movie title and main ideas, instead i'm going for a more modernist approach (some would say) and just writing whatever comes up in my mind.

Indeed, funny how people did pick up on me saying this repeatedly in the English orals that just concluded. Anyway, i guess i just decided to write after reading some other people's blogs (more like skimming) and realised that well, probably because of our area of study-identity, that we are not defined necessarily by what other people think of us, or what we have to show be it monetary or other success. And it only matters what we think of ourselves, and indeed how we enjoy the short time we have here. And my step-dad would say that indeed "money doesn't create happiness but it does make life more comfortable" and i agree, it is his dogma that allows him to enjoy life to the fullest, despite being financially unstable. And after a long absence i've realised that i too have been slipping to the monstrous consumption of study and the everyday mundane lifestyle that i, well everyone tends to avoid. And after all this time perhaps it's too late to return back. And then i realise that it's not one thing that defines me, and things in my life have been keeping me sane and arguably content. My music and band. And my lifestyle and team. And my job and co-workers. And my clique and friends.

But you know what, at the end of the day, i realise that it's me that decides my own fate, and of course, my happiness. And i hold the key that unlocks (what a cliche) my own sense of self and happiness. And i mean who knows me better than myself. And this spring hopefully things will be awesome simply because they really are, and those teenage angst feelings felt by many are just hormones and a corrupted sense of self. And hell i'm looking forward to making some big plays.

Keeping this cause it's awesome so bye.