Bittersweet Symphony

Ah that classic song with the classic violin riff by the Verve that was later proved in court to be plaguerised from the Rolling Stone's 'The Last Time', what a perfect song and perfect background to sum up the feelings i'm currently having. Now i would say i'm an avid fan of bittersweet, whether it be those endings in Hollywood movies that aren't the generic feel-good fairytale, or even Mint Dark Chocolate, with enough sugar to entice, and cocoa to savour, bittersweet has been a staple of mine for years. Especially right now where there is the strangest excitment in the air, the end of trial examinations coupled with the terrible results i know i probably accomplished. Bittersweet indeed.

Sometimes you can't have the cake and eat it or so i've been told. Recently though, this has been more the case with the looming fear of growing up along with the joy of becoming an adult. It's weird growing up, and so much so they've created an entire genre dedicated to 'coming-of-age' films with the likes of Holden Caulfield, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, American Pie and even more modern Prom. Of course many of these also fall into the 'teen comedy' or 'trash i wouldn't let my children see but they do anyway'. Its the bittersweet realisation that one's highschool will be ending soon, one they might have despised for being awkard and strange phase in one's life, but also reminiscent of the great times spent with highschool friends. There is joy in leaving and looking forward to new and better things, but also great sadness in looking back to times now gone.

One must realise that all real endings in life are in fact, bittersweet, and nothing was truly ever all that bad, nor all that good. It's kind of like having a midnight snack. It tastes so good, and feels so right but afterwards you feel guilty for having it. The only thing that matters is that you continue having midnight snacks, or not, as long as you're making the decision. With only four weeks give or take of highschool life remaining, one must put aside differences and really explore what one might miss once that month is up, and you're faced with a whole list of universities to choose from.

Looking forward to the last game of Rugby tomorrow so bye.