single and singing

The recent increase of rugby training along with the supposed studying i am meant to have conducted have been occupying my time in the past few days. Tests are coming up soon and yet i still am procrastinating such as yesterday where i ended up indulging in pho (beef noodle soup in case you don't know) at a Vietnamese restaurant in Hurstville. Also right now as i write this blog. For once in my life though i actually feel relieved for today i realised something that changed me, an epiphany if you will.

My co-worker recently broke up with his long-time on-again-off-again girlfriend and this time he said yet again it was "for real". A week later, being today, he gets a message saying that she's now pregnant. Now she's used such an excuse previously and obviously it succeeded in getting him back however before she never used to go through with pregnancy tests (as it was a hoax) but now she has come up positive twice. Of course, as any person would, he freaked out and then explained that the past week of being single was one of the happiest weeks of his life. This got me thinking about things and realised that perhaps, he was actually right.

There's ups and downs in both being free and single, and, tied and committed. For when your in a relationship, you are rarely bored and rarely alone, there's always the special someone around. You may have increased confidence and may enjoy simple things much more. Plus you can do secretive "pansy" (for a stereotyped machismo) things that we all know we love (like caps, karaoke and watching landscape change) with that special someone. Then again you're missing out on freedom, having the ability to hang with whoever and whenever you want. You can check out hot guys/girls without feeling guilty and you can have fun with the opposite sex (or same sex however you flow) without a second thought of jealousy or guilt.

Who gives a shit whether you're in a relationship or not? Of course i've always been the one promoting such, pushing friends to either ask or talk to girls. It's true maybe i've been a little self-centered in increasing our group's reputation and sociability and even though our group of nine may be small, it's has always been fun and fine the way it is. Only today did i realise that maybe sometimes you don't have to be in a relationship to be accompanied. For the people around you everyday are who really matter: your colleagues (in school or at work), your teammates, your friends and sometimes unfortunately your family.

It's fine if you don't want to ruin friendship for a chance of romance. It's fine if you tried switching a friendly afternoon off to a intimate dinner and failed. It's fine if you don't have the time or effort to talk to a quiet girl. "cause i'm free as a bird now..." and it feels good even though it took a friend's desperation and a co-worker's trouble to change my opinion. Unfortunately for everyone, there will be a lot more singing "and this bird you'll never change..."

Singing some classics so bye.